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Saturday, November 24, 2012

Binata ka na! :)

October 2, 2010
**His first birthday with us as a couple

There are no exact words to explain how I feel about you. I feel speechless on how to greet you, in what manner, in what phrases should I use to make you feel that I'm really happy for your birthday. So, let's try to put some sense on the next sentences or paragraphs! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEBS! :)
Finally, binata ka na! Pwede ka na siguro pakasalan niyan.. Lol. Di pa pala, pagkagraduate mo pa! Hahaha! :P But seriously, you're now what they say a full-grown man. Like yeah, don't mention the weight because you've grown up since then. Hehe!

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Wait lang. Nosebleed na ko. Ayoko na mag-english! Ang hirap kasi talaga mag-isip ng isusulat. Tsk. Basta, basahin mo na lang `tong isusulat ko sayo. High-tech na ngayon e. Di na uso ung sa papel. Dito na lang sa Multiply blog ha? :) Eto na...

"O tulog ka lang dyan ha, alam kong mamaya ka pa magigising. Pasulatin mo muna ko dito.. :)"

Sa totoo lang...

Ang dami kong gustong sabihin.
Ang dami kong gustong malaman mo.
Ang dami kong gustong iparamdam sayo.
At hindi sapat na maisulat ko lang dito.

Sa tuwing may nangyayaring okasyon sa `tin, `di ko talaga mapigilan magreminisce. Parang ambilis ng oras, pero kasabay nun ung parang ambagal din niya. Ambilis kasi, ang dami na pala nating napagdaanan, napuntahan, napag-usapan, napag-awayan, napagtawanan. Pero antagal kasi.. Ang dami ko pang gustong gawin kasama ka. Ang dami ko pang gustong puntahan. Ang dami ko pang gustong maranasan! Lahat `yun, gusto ko andun ka, sa tabi ko, o kaya pinapanood ako. Basta, ung andun ka lang lagi. At syempre, gusto ko din na andun ako sa tabi mo. Pagkagraduate mo, pag may trabaho ka na at lahat ng pwede mo pang maranasan! Masyado nang fastforward kung isipin ko na andun ako hanggang sa pagtanda mo pero, un talaga naiisip ko e. Ewan ko ba. Gusto na talaga kita makasama forever. Parang, "forever and ever, babe?" Hahaha! Seriously, ayokong mawala ka pa e. :)


He's got the smile that I fell in love with
and the arms I wanna be held in forever.

Ngayon, 21st birthday mo. Nung nakilala kita, totoy ka pa. Hahaha! ASA. Forever kang magiging totoy sa kin dahil mas bata ka sa `kin noh. At alam kong forever mo na kong aasarin pag edad ang pag-uusapan. Lagi kang, "3rd year high school ako nung nauso yung kantang yan, IKAW?" Sabay ngiti ka lagi pag edad pinag-uusapan nating dalawa. HMP.

Naalala mo pa ba ung birthday mo last year? Tinanong pa kita nung isang araw kung ano ung binigay ko sa`yo, at parehas pa tayong nag-isip talaga. Ang tagal na pala talaga. Un nga at namroblema na naman ako sa ibibigay ko sayo. Kahit sabihin mong importante e andun ako sa birthday mo, syempre, I always want to give something to you.. para me bibigay ka din sa birthday ko next month! Hahaha! Joke lang. :P

"Wait lang. Mamaya ka na magising. TSK. 4AM na pala. Di pa ko tapos mag-type!"

Pagpasensyahan mo na nga pala ung birthday gift ko sa yo ha? Hindi ko natupad ung simpleng gusto mo na cake chaka mag-boblow ka ng candle na 21 nakalagay. :( Palpak lahat. Pagkatanda ko talaga, ayaw mo ng Red Ribbon kaya Goldilocks binili ko. Un pala, Black Forest tinutukoy mo sa Red Ribbon at ayaw mo ng Choco Mousse ng Goldilocks! TOINKS. Wala ding 21 na candle. :( 2 lang daw kasi meron e.. Anong gagawin ko sa 2 kung walang 1?? 2 years old ka lang? TSK. Pero at least, may blinow ka pa rin naman na candle kanina di ba? Sana naappreciate mo yun. At sana matupad ung wish mo! :)

Sorry din kung di ko nabili ung gusto mo. Panget design e! Hehe! Pero I'm glad that you liked the other one. Gamitin mo un ah! Baka una't huli ko nang makitang suot mo un kanina. HMPP! :P Naalala ko ung text mo sa kin kagabi..

"Tsk. Empty ung cp ko. Asan na ba ung charger?"

" I just want those things.. But I need you.. Mga ordinaryong bagay lang un.. Ikaw hindi.. May itlog ka sa ulo."

Natawa talaga ko.. kasabay ng pagka-touch, syempre. Pano, special na special. May itlog pa talaga sa ulog.. parang lugaw lang ah. :P At kasabay ng pagpaparamdam mo sa kin na special ako, sana naramdaman mo din na special ka nung birthday mo. :)

Sorry kung inaway kita nung umaga,, pati nung pauwi na. Oo, may utang akong dine out sayo! Di ko makakalimutan. Sorry talaga. :( At salamat sa palaging pag-intindi. Ang childish ko masyado. Ikaw `tong may birthday, ako `tong papansin. :(

Bebs, next birthday mo kaya, Anong mangyayari?
Ang saya kahapon e! Kahit na nakakapagod. Kahit na nag-away tayo, all in all naman, masaya pa rin di ba? Nag-enjoy ka pa rin naman di ba? Nakabawi pa rin naman ako di ba?

*Background sound: Someone's snoring. Hihihihi.. *

Sana sa next birthday mo, magkasama ulit tayo.
Sana sa next birthday mo, ako pa rin girlfriend mo.
Sana sa next birthday mo, masaya ulit!
At sana sa next birthday mo, matupad na lahat ng gusto mo.
Ung kasama natin ung HS friends mo, sila Abby, PauPau, Karl pati ung iba!
Chaka sana, andito na rin ung parents mo. Para sobrang happy mo!
Kung kaya ko lang pamasahihan sila ng roundtrip ticket sa birthday mo, ginawa ko na e.
Para lang sumaya ka ng lubus-lubusan. :)
Kaya, dapat ko nang pag-ipunan yan para next year! HAHAHAHAHAHA!


you have this silly way
of keeping me on the edge of my seat. :">


Bebebs, thanks for giving me the opportunity na ako ung makasama mo sa birthday mo.
Thanks for everything that you have given me.. especially your time.
Wish ko sa birthday mo, sana maging okay na lahat regarding your studies.

"Tsk. Maaalimpungatan ka na ata. =s"

Sana `di na tumagal ung parents mo sa States para makasama mo na sila ng matagal.
Sana lalo pa tayong magtagal! :)

I LOVE YOU RAI. On my end, aside from all of my gifts, I have a promise to make for your birthday.. I will stay devoted to you. I'll remain faithful AND loyal. I'll try my best to be your ideal girlfriend. Just keep on accepting my flaws and all. ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULIT! :)
Tabi na ulit tayo! ;)


I may not get to see you as often as I like
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night
But deep in my heard I truly know,
you're the one that I love and I can't let you go

You're My Man


December 15, 2009
For the past few days, I was thinking on what would be the best thing to do during our anniversary. You wanted us to eat at Angel's Kitchen, somewhere here in Greenhills, because you watched it on tv that the food there was great. While I was thinking on something cheesy like going back to the place where we were the year before.

But then, I remember how we became a couple. Remember the date? Remember the day? Remember what I was wearing? Haha! I was just from our company's Christmas party when we met again. And I just want to stop talking right now. I don't want other people to know on how we became a couple. They will surely laugh because I can't help myself laughing whenever I remember it. Basta, thanks to Ate Gellie for asking. LMAO!

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O tama na. Cheesy moment ko na muna. Haha!

Bebs ko, thanks po sa blog. Ahihi! :">
Anong oras ka na natulog? Mukang pagkatapos nating mag-usap, nag-blog ka kaagad ah. Haha!
And I was touched.. and very much pleased. <3

Akalain mong napag-blog kita ulit? Matagal tagal ka na ring di nagboblog ah.
Sadya atang pag malungkot ka lang nagboblog. Palungkutin kaya kita? Bwahahaha. Kidding. :P
Naalala ko tuloy nung nag-away tayo tapos hindi tayo nag-usap ng mga 24 hours.
Parehas pa tayong nag-blog about our drama tapos nalaman na lang natin un nung nag-uusap na ulit tayo. Ahaha. (:

Garabe.
Ambilis ng panahon.
One year na pala.
One year na pala tayo.
Parang kelan lang noh?
Ang sarap tuloy mag-reminisce...

Magkasama tayong nagPasko at nagNew Year last year. Ngayon kaya?
At tama ko noh? Kung ano talaga ung ginagawa pag New year, un gagawin sa buong taon!
Tignan mo tayo. Un at un talaga ginagawa natin... Tambay together. <3 Ahaha. :P

Naalala ko nung nag-date kunoh pa tayo sa MOA. Di ko malaman kung date ba talaga un or suhol or whatever. Linibre mo pa talaga ko sa Kalye Juan! Magkano din un ah. Tapos, ambilis mo. Nung nanood tayo ng fireworks, nakahawak ka na agad sa kamay ko. IBA KA BOI! Hahahaha! Naalala mo ba nung ninakawan mo ko ng halik habang natutulog ako sa bus? Pilyo ka talagang bata ka. Bwahahahaha. :P

Anggang sa naging tayo at lagi na tayong magkasama tuwing weekends. Garabe noh? `Di ata lumilipas ang dalawang linggo na hindi tayo nagkikita e. Feeling ko kasi, pag di tayo nagkikita ng weekends, kulang ang linggo ko. Alam mo un? Sa limang araw na pagtatrabaho ko, weekends lang ang nilolook forward ko lagi. Dahil alam ko.. un na ang araw ko parang maging masaya ng todo. Un na kasi ang araw na makikita at makakasama ulit kita. (: Ewan ko ba. Ginayuma mo ata kong talaga. Di ka ubod ng gwapo. Di ka naman pwedeng pang-Macho Man. Pero.. humaling talaga ko sa`yo. Tingin ko.. dahil un sa fats mo! Bwahahahaha. :P Seriously, malapit na talaga kong maniwala na pinainom mo talaga ko ng gayuma at ang epekto niya e forever.. Oo, poreber and eber. Haha!

Ikaw na talaga. Ikaw na nakikita ko na maging future ko. Kahit na oo, nahihirapan ako sa `tin. Kahit na oo, nasasaktan ako minsan. Kahit na oo, gusto ko nang umayaw. Hinding-hindi pa rin kita mabitawan. Isipin ko pa lang, masakit na. Pano pag ginawa ko na? Aysus. Warla na. :P

Alam ko, napepressure kita ng madalas. Ang dami ko kasi gusto. Ang dami kong gustong gawin nating magkasama. Ang dami kong gusto na gawin mo para sa `kin. At ang dami kong gustong gawin para sa`yo. Parang kulang na kulang masyado ang oras natin. Byahe pa lang, panalo na. Sayang din sa 2 oras ah! Pagkita natin minsan, may kasama nang pagod. :( Pero tiis lang tayo Bebs.. Kaya ko pa. Don't worry. (: Kaya pa kitang hintayin. Mag-aral ka maigi para makatapos ka na! Nang maumpisahan na natin gawin ung mga plano natin. (: Mga ilang years pa ba? Siguro after mga 2-3 years, tapos ka na. Tapos, magwowork ka. Iipon tayo bahay. Siguro pag lagpas 25 ko noh? Haha! Basta ba ikaw ung nasa dulo ng lahat ng `to, sige lang. Aantayin kitang maging ready.

Hahaha! Ironic noh? Parang ewan. Ikaw `tong lalaki, ikaw `tong aantayin ko. Bata mo kasi e. Hmp! :P Manlalaki kaya muna ko? Lol. Joke lang! :P

Ah basta..

Gusto pa kitang makasama ng matagal na matagal!
Gusto ko ulit manood ng fireworks kasama ka.
Gusto ko ulit mag-timezone at maglaro ng parang bata tayo.
Gusto ko ulit mag-usap tayo sa gabi anggang sa makatulugan na tayong dalawa.
Gusto ko ulit maghugas ng pinggan para sa`yo. Basta ikaw lagi maglalaba! :P
Gusto ko ulit makalabas kasama ung mga barkada mo.
Gusto ko ulit makapunta ka ng bahay anggang sa maging kumportable ka.
Gusto ko ulit mag-date with Lelo and Tedi. (Promise, anak mo talaga si Lelo kahit blue siya!)
Gusto ko ulit mag-order ng walang kamatayang McDo para sa `tin pag nasa inyo.
Gusto ko ulit ng madaming yakap at halik mo lalo na pag namiss mo ko ng sobra. :">
Gusto ko pa ulit ng madaming sweet moments.
Gusto ko pang makasama ka for the rest of my life.
And I hope you feel the same way too. (Di ba? Sapak ka sa kin! :P)

Basta bebs.. Dyan ka lang ha? At dito lang ako.
Alam mo naman kung anong makakapag-okey sa kin pag topak ako at madaming naiisip e.
Makita lang kita. Yakapin mo lang ako. Okay na ko.
Kampante na ulit pakiramdam ko. Feeling ko, okay na ulit lahat. :">

O sige na. Ang haba na nito. Ang keso na masyado. Letse. Hahaha!
I love you Ray-Ann. I love you so much!
Happy anniversary ulit!
To infinity and beyond! (:





TAENA. AYOKO NA! ANG CHEEEEESSSSSYYYYY!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHA! :P

Make me better..

March 2, 2009

Not being in good terms with you is definitely a chaos. It's like stopping yourself to be happy.. or to breathe. Seriously, it's like falling to a pit and you can't see any color -- just black and white. It's like living in sadness that I can't find a reason to smile.

Even though you were beside me, even though I can feel you, all that I can radiate is your sadness and your quietness. I'm not used being with you with no words to say. As much as I want to pretend that I am good and happy, I cannot for I really can't fake myself when you're in front of me or it's just you and me together. Oh yeah, we definitely have quiet times. But that's with a "contentment" feeling. Unlike what we had.. just pure awkward emotions that I don't really know what to do. I'll talk to you, you'll just answer as if everything is fine and that we're cool. I want to talk about it but you just don't want to. What more can I do? But to cry quietly...


It's not wise to have a fight with you. Even though I would love to be egoistic, I cannot for I'll rather eat all of the ego and pride inside me rather than not talking to you for so long.

I'm sorry if I was quiet this afternoon. It's very nonsense to call you at your house and then, I won't be speaking. I just felt that if ever I'll be speaking, I'll just end up crying. Golly, you made me a crybaby again. You're making me feel weak again. X_x But with the words you said, just when I want to hung up the phone, you drew a smile on my face that made me feel ecstatic. You never fail to do such. Thank you for that. And sorry for all of my shortcomings and for the very "moody" weekend that we had. And the next time that you just want me to make lambing, just tell me so that I will have a clue than going ballistic for I don't know how to make amends. HAHAHAHA! =P

Oh well, let's just forget about it. I am happy already. Finally, we're okayyy. You're not angry at me anymore. Hmm.. Okay.. not really angry for you said that you can't get angry at me. =P Let's just say, you're back to your happy disposition. I got my bubbly hubby again! YAY! =D


"Between laughing for no reason,
stupid arguments, long talks
and making fun of each other...

I fell in love with you."

30 minutes to go...


Feb 27, '09 8:47 AM


.. and that would be 24 hours that would be equivalent to a day without him. Err. Not actually without him for if I'm not sleeping, I'm thinking about him. FCUK.

I'm so effing stupid. Why did I ever thought of teasing him of living without me? And here I am.. almost dying and grasping for breath. I can't breathe. Are you the air that I breath now? That's why I'm having a hard time pulling the hours and not contacting you? DAMN.

Emo mode. Is this your impact to me? My oh my. I'm trapped again in the game of love. FCUK. But oh yeah, good thing is we don't have this set-up because we fought. Just what Abhie said, "Mas ok un mamiss nyo naman un isa't isa." But why am I feeling this way? I feel defeated. I think and feel that I miss him more. I think he's having a good time and not effing thinking about me. I want to rant. Rant. Rant. ARGGHH.

And oh yeah, Ervin and I had a short text convo just this morning. I was asking Ervin for the story that he missed to tell me. Then he told me to ask Rai. I answered, "Di kami bati. Ikaw na lang magkwento." I was acting like a child. HAHAHA! And then Ervin won't believe me. I asked if he saw Rai awhile ago and he answered yes. Maybe he won't believe me for it doesn't show with Rai. Damn. I'm so paranoid. HAHAHA!

Yeah right, Abhie, I am weak. I was even planning of calling their house once I woke up this evening just to hear his voice and hung up the phone -- for he always answer their phone if he's there. But oh well, he was not yet in their house when I called around 8pm and I don't have the heart to hung up the phone when Ate Gelli answered it. SHIT.

And hey Lhyzie, I'll be giving you his number. Text him. I won't have second thoughts anymore. LOL. Just kidding. Let him be if he's happy. PSH.

Round 1, 2, 3.

February 11, 2009
**From Rai's Multiply
**First Petty Fight

"I know sometimes it's gonna rain, But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain"
- Mad

ROUND 1:OVERVIEW
okay sa tagalog ako magsusulat ngayon. una dahil sa wala ako sa mood mag-"english" at pangalawa ay dahil sa mas madali akong makapagsulat, mabilis at may patutunguhan.

"hindi ko ginusto na mali ang maiparating ko sa iyo..." yan ang mga salitang tumatakbo sa aking isipan ngayon. kung hindi ba naman ako isa't kalahating may sayad eh dapat sa ibang paraan ko nalang sinimulan ang pagsasabi sa kanya. nag"segway" pa kasi ako eh.. kaartehan ko talaga. at ano ang napala ko? nasaktan ko siya.. nasaktan. tae talaga. sa susunod talaga straight to the point na ako. kainis.

lesson learned: maraming nadidisgrasya sa kaartehan.
note to self: tandaan!

"My stupid mouth has got me in trouble, i said to much again"
- my stupid mouth

ROUND 2: SCENARIO
ito sana yung dapat na sinabi ko
straight to the point
english o tagalog?? english na lang para may effect.. oopps tagalog na nga lang baka magkamali pa ako sa english. kailangan isabuhay ang aral na aking natutunan sa gabing ito.
->natuwa ako sa blog niya. sa katunayan nga eh may naramdaman pa akong kilig na may halong pagkamiss. nung binabasa ko yung blog, sobrang overwhelmed ako kasi ang sweet niya doon. kaya lalo ko pa siyang namiss.. hayyssss... natuwa rin ako dun sa nabasa kong comment sa kanya (tatagalugin ko na lang kasi english yung pakaksabi noong kausap niya) "ikaw ah. mukhang masaya ka talaga sa boyfriend mo ahh"
ako: aaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
sapul.

"Masdan mo giliw, langit sa piling mo
Mundo'y gumaganda, Bawat hinga'y laan sa yo
Sa bawat ihip, at bulong ng hangin ay
Mundo'y iikot lang, sa iyo"
- Buwan

Round 3:REDEMPTION
message ko para kay lei: una sa lahat gusto ko humingi ng tawad. pasensya na. hindi ko intensyon na ganoon ang maparating ko sa iyo. ang tutoo niyan ay sobrang naaapreciate ko yung ginawa mo para sakin. hindi ko kayang tumbasan yun. kahit na kailan hindi kita binabalewala. pasensya na. hindi ko binabaliwala yung effort mo para sakin. sa tutoo niyan ay sobrang natutuwa pa ako doon sa mga blogs mo. hayyyyzzzz... i'm really sorry..T_T. sana may magawa akong way para makabawi sa iyo. para mafeel mo kung gaano ka kaimportante sakin. sana lang talaga may magawa ako para hindi kana magalit sakin.
                                                                                                                        explain pa ako eh..

Reading Convos..

January 26, 2009


WARNING: MUSHY





Before...


I love how you made me feel that I am special..
I love how you give so much of your time to me..
I love how you make me want to pull the time just to talk to you..
I love how you make me feel good even though I'm already in a bad mood..
I love how you know what to say and to keep your silence whenever I'm talking..
I love how you make me laugh real hard..
I love how you care about me.. more than any close friend can do.
I love how you trust me about the story of your life..











and I love those things until now.
You're still the person I've known since August and I do hope that you won't change.


I'll take care of you more than anyone can do.
I'll forever treasure the time that we do have for each other.
I'll remain loyal to you. I'll try to be faithful. Haha!














Wala lang. Biglang naging mushy. Hahahaha!
Isisi natin sa mga convos natin. LOL
I was reading it awhile ago. And I just remembered the times that we always chat over Y!M.
(Oh yeah, we still chat but most of the time, we're talking over the phone. Haha!)
How you wait for me after work and how excited was I to go home coz I know you'll be waiting for me.
How you asked me before for a sudden meet up.
How Y!M made us close.. and how talking over the phone, after my birthday, made us closer.

O, tama na. Super mushy na talaga. Hahaha!
Basta, I'm really happy that I have you in my life. =)

Allow me to be mushy. =P


January 19, 2009

Felt replying about your post. I know that a text message won't be enough of what I feel right now.. or what I felt after I read the blog you made for me. Hihi.


First, I do appreciate the blog that you made about me.. about us. I did not expect it.. only after Roz texted me last night saying, "Happy monthsary sa inyo". Hahahaha! Ang galing naman kasi ni Roz kung natandaan niya pa ung date na naging tayo di ba? At parang ang imposible naman na itext mo siya just to greet me. Kasi parang late na ng mga 3 days. LOL Basta, I do appreciate it. You don't need to do something anyways. BUT I'm grateful. I melted, in fairness. Hihihi.


Second, sabi mo hindi naiiscroll down ung ginawa mo! I was expecting a very little note only. Hahaha! Something like, "Happy monthsary" and "I love you" only. Adeek ka. Mahaba naman e. Pati buhok ko, mahaba na rin. Lmao!


Third, it should be a secret that you are a battered boyfriend. Ikaw naman, binubuking mo ako e. Hahahaha! Sorry for hurting you.. physically. Nakakagigil ka kasi e. At alam kong kating-kati ka na rin na saktan ako. HAHAHAHA! Seriously, I'm really sorry. I just love pinching you.  And sorry `cause I can't promise that I'll stop doing it. Hihi.


Fourth, you do know that I feel the same way -- that as if we've been together for a long time already. It's just our first monthsary anyway. Short pa lang talaga! Hahaha! And we've known each other for 6 months only. But that's fine. We still have forever anyways.. hopefully.  And lagi kasi tayong magkasama kaya ganun feeling natin. Ginagawa ba naman nating magkapitbahay ang Laguna at Greenhills. Hahahaha! And yeah, thanks sa pag-effort mong ihatid ako lagi. Kahit na galing na ko sa inyo, hinahatid mo pa rin ako anggang sa amin or sa work ko. Nagjojoyride ka ng bonggang bongga just to make sure that I'm always safe. Garabe. Hands down ako sa'yo.. at kinikilig. Hihihihi.


Fifth, `di pa natin nalilibot ang buong EDSA. Feeling mo pa lang talaga un. Hahaha! Un lang kasi ung madalas nating dinadaanan kaya ganun feeling mo. But if you want, libutin natin. Para naman `di tayo lagi sa MOA, Glorietta, Greenbelt or Promenade. Hahahaha! :P And mini-mini pa lang ung paggala natin, next time, ung bongga na. Mga probinsya o kaya ibang bansa. LMAO! Basta kasama kita, okay na ko. *wink


And lastly, Happy First Monthsary Rai!  I can't say anything more because I said it all through my letter to you. Hahahaha! Pero pwede ding ulitin. Asan ba ung scratch ko? Hahaha! Here it goes. I just want to share also what I wrote for you. Hihi.




"Happy First Monthsarry Rai! It's just our first month but why do I feel like I've been with you for so long already? Maybe because we're almost always spending every weekend with each other's arms (Me ganun?! Haha!) And we're always texting and talking over the phone. Good thing my voice still don't irritate your ears and you still wanna see the same face over and over again. Praise God. Haha!

Thanks for being there for me Bebs. And for giving me so much of your time. I DO APPRECIATE IT. And thanks sa pagsakay sa mga trip ko. (Biglang nag-Tagalog? Lmao!) I do know that I'm such a moody person and I just wanna worship your patience with me.. for us. Kailan kaya yan mauubos? Sana unlimited for me. Haha!


Basta, thanks for all the things that you do.. and for loving me. I love you, too. Bleh! =P And I'm very happy and contented that I have you in my life. Hope you feel the same way too. Haha! Mushy much! `Til here Rai. Lei loves you. Always remember that. =) *TIP: If ever I say I don't or I didn't, I'm lying, Haha!

Again, I LOVE YOU RAY-ANN JOSEPH P. MENDOZA!"








P.S.

And let me grab this chance to say"Thank You" to Ervin. Hahaha! If not because of you, `di ko makikilala si Rai. And feeling ko `di mo agad `to mababasa dahil alam kong busy ka sa lovelife mo. LOL. Basta, thank you Cute!







I miss you.. I always miss you.

Especially before the week ends. Pano, halos lahat ng tao, tanong ng tanong kung pupunta daw ba kong Laguna this weekend. Workmates, close friends, cousins and even my brother! Hahaha! Nasanay na kasi silang pumupunta kong Laguna during the weekend. And nasanay na rin ako. I always look forward for the weekend because that's the only time that I can be with you. Good thing kahit na `di ako pumunta this weekend sa inyo, nagkita pa rin tayo. Whew! Just when I thought I won't be able to see you. Thanks Rai. =D


Convo just this morning through YM:
Lei: i miss your kisses... and hugs. 
Rai: i miss your touch
Rai: i miss your warm embrace..
Rai: i miss the sense that i'm with you
Lei: hahahahahaha! basta. 
Lei: basta namimiss na kita... ng sobra. kahit isang araw pa lang tayong nagkakahiwalay...
Lei: sana lagi na lang kita kasama....
Lei: sana pagdating ko ng bahay, ikaw ung nadadatnan ko...
Rai: awwww....
Lei: sana paggising ko, ikaw ung nakikita ko...

There, let's cut it. It's super mushy na talaga. Hahahaha!





 And yeah, one month down, FOREVER TO GO, Rai. 

A marvieluz life to my point of view

January 18, 2009
**From Rai's Multiply
**His first ever virtual declaration of love for me. :")

this is supposed to be my letter for you since i didn't had anything to give you in our very first monthsary.. but instead i'll write about what i been to in the past... one month.. ahaha

yan! yan ang babaeng laging akong pinagtri-tripan. hindi kumpleto ang araw niya 
hanggat hindi niya ako pinagtri-tripan. minsan uuwi na lang akong namamaga ang braso sa dami ng kurot na natanggap ko.ewan ko ba. siguro dahil na rin sa medyo mataba ako kaya sarap na sarap siyang kurutin ako. pero ok lang yun. hindi ako nagrereklamo. kung iyun lang naman ang matatanggap ko at kung yun lang naman ang kailangan para makasama lang siya, malugod akong magpapakurot hanggang sa dumugo na ang braso ko o matuklap na ang balat ko. sino siya kamo?

siya si Marvie Luz Castilla a.k.a. "lei". nakilala ko siya sa isang "on-line social netw
ork" na pinakilala sakin ni ervin. simula doon ay hindi ko lubos maisip na sa simpleng katuwaan lang ng pagsali ko doon ay magiiba ang takbo ng buhay ko. dati kasi hindi kami gaanong close, simpleng batian lang at kamustahan ang lagi naming napag-uusapan. hanggang sa lumalim ng lumalim ng lumalim ang ang pag-sasama sa puntong hindi ko na alam kung anong susunod. ay alam ko pala. hanggang sa lagi na kaming umaalis at nagpupunta sa kung saan. hindi nagtagal ay hinahanap hanap ko na siya at sa huli ay mahal ko na pala siya. muntik pa nga siyang mawala sakin pero buti na ang at hindi iyun natuloy at naging kami. kailan ba kamo?? nung December 15, 2008 lang naman. 

maraming beses na rin kaming nagkakasama ni lei laging masaya ang aming pagsasama feeling ko nga ang tagal na namin magkasama pero isang buwan pa lang na kami.dahil siguro literal na lagi kaming magkasama. kung saan saan na nga kami na kapunta eh. feel ko nga nalibot ko na ang buong edsa kaka-gala kasama siya. pero tatlong mall lang naman ang aming pinuntahan. MOA, GLORIETTA at PROMENADE. ang ganda  pala sa promenade kahit isang beses  pa lang ako nakapunta doon.. eh.. talagan namang gandang ganda ako sa lugar at ang sarap balik balikan.lalo akong natuwa sa lugar kasi sa laki nong fully-booked doon. ahaha. dami pagpipilian ang saya. marami na  din akong nagawang bago sa buhay ko at isa na ata dito ay ang karanasan kong umuwi ng maaga. hindi basta bastang umaga lang kung hindi yung tipong 6am na ng umaga.. ahahaha take that for new experience. ahahahaha...

sa isang buwan na nagkasama kami bilang kami. wala na akong mahihiling pa. masaya ang buhay makulay. ang dami kong naranasan marami akong natutunan. may mga maganda at may mga mas maganda pa. isang buwan pa lang yan. maraming tuwa may iyak din. hindi naman siguro maiiwasan yun eh, pero ang importante ay naaayos ang lahat. Lei salamat sa pagdating mo sa buhay ko kaya kukunin ko ang oportunidad na ito para sabihin sa iyo na mahal kita.^_^ salamat sa lahat ng nagawa mo para sakin lalong lalo na sa pagiging pasenyosa mo sa ugali kong minsan ay nakakainis, salamat at nakiklala kita, salamat at nakilala mo ako higit pa sa pagkakilala ng iba. lei. salamat.. teka mushy na ata..^_^




"ONE DOWN...FOREVER TO GO.. HAPPY MONTHSARY LEI"

A Dazzling Feeling, In This Litte Space

August 28, 2008
**From Rai's multiply


WARNING: MAY CONTAIN CERTAIN AMOUNT OF NON-SENSE
VIEWERS DISCRETION IS ADVISED


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A twisted smile across my face 
A cut to the wrist, a knife in hand
A dizzying feeling I embrace
A dazzling feeling, in this little space

Ohh I feel so alive with every slit I take
Still thinking of you in every breath I make
Thought so sad that I’m all drained
I slit again, what a feeling that will never be the same

Stupid as it seemed but no one will understand
 This ecstasy of enjoyment, I started to grip
Bleeding myself out, lying in the floor
I stared across the moon lit sky with no one to hold

A twisted smile across my face 
A cut to the wrist, a knife in hand
A dizzying feeling I embrace
A dazzling feeling, I felt in this little space

Laguna LOVE.... =D

December 28, 2008


"Laguna, Laguna, I kept coming back to Laguna."
Wait. Parang hindi dapat Laguna un. Manila dapat un di ba? Hahahaha! Know the song? =P Wala lang. I want to go back to Laguna eh.. (Again?!) Hahahaha! It's like every week I'm there. Tsktsktsk. Super addicted to Laguna. Oh well, even though that's where I lost my purse and my ATM card, I don't mind. Laguna paid back already.. BIG TIME! =P


Been to Laguna the first time, particularly their house, during.. when was it? I just remembered my shirt saying, "Your boyfriend wants me. Hey, are you aware?" And he was wearing his hooded shirt with something on it like, "I knew where your girlfriend was last night". Cool, eh? And then, I got a glimpsed of his sister who was there. *goosebumps*

Ohh! I remember! It was when I gave my post birthday gift to Chrystelle (Lunatic). We dropped by their house after so that he can change his clothes. And then, off we go to... Greenbelt. =D

Next was after Sitel's Christmas Party at SMX, Mall of Asia. I arrived there at around 1AM? Hahahaha! Iba talaga trip ko sa buhay. Tsktsktsk. Basta magustuhan, go lang. Hahaha! But it's okay. I had F-U-N while I was there. Bad thing is, I have to go to work come that evening. And what's "enough sleep"? I don't know the word. Hahaha! Good thing, I wasn't late and hinatid niya ko -- talk about his joyride from Laguna to Greenhills and back to Laguna. Hahaha! Sweeeeeet. :">

After that, I kept coming back to Laguna. I even went there after my Friday shift, 12MN to 9AM of Saturday, and left my purse with my ATM card inside. And it was just the start of my Laguna weekend! But that was fine. Hindi naman ako nabadtrip ng bongga nun. Naisip ko na lang, P500 din ung pocket money ko nun and hindi naman nila kayang maaccess ung ATM ko dahil hindi naman siya random numbers lang at [sarcastic] super lapit ko lang naman sa bahay [/sarcastic]. Hahahahaha! Seriously, I wasn't bad trip at all. I'm with Rhai anyways and there's nothing to worry about. (Good thing he do have lots of money that day. Whew! Bwahahahaha!) Bad trip lang ung pumunta kami the next day to MOA and ang dami kong gustong bilhin pero hindi ko naman mabili.. and yeah, nahihiya naman ako magpabili noh dahil pulos kapritso ko lang un. Hahahaha! Hello Starbucks?

And yeah, galing ulit ako dun at kagabi lang ako umuwi. And yeah, I wanna go back there again. Gahd. So addicted to Laguna. Or let's say, I'm deeply in love with Laguna... all because of him. Hahahahaha! (Walang basagan ng trip! Bleh! =P) And you read it right, lumalovelife na naman ako. Hah!

There. Un talaga whole point dito e. Hahaha! I'm in love.. so much!
I love you Ray Ann Joseph! <3



Mushy much? =P
WAK EPAL. Mmkay? Hahahahaha!

Handwriting Analysis! =)

October 31, 2008


Got this from Rhai. =) Naaliw ako. ANG GALINGGGG! :thumbsup:
 Marvie is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
Marvie will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Marvie an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Marvie is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Marvie is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Marvie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
 Marvie will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Marvie believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
 Marvie is talkative. She enjoys talking and socializing. She may talk when there is absolutely nothing important to say. She enjoys speaking.
 In reference to Marvie's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Marvie slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Marvie can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
 Marvie is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Marvie basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
 Marvie is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
 Marvie is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Marvie changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Marvie feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.
 Marvie has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
 For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Marvie has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Marvie fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Marvie has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Marvie just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Marvie finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.




CREDITS: Hand Writing Wizard

Friday, November 23, 2012

Satisfied. =)

October 21, 2008

He texted me this morning just saying, "Bulaga!" Funny, eh? He's as weird as that. He'll just text out of the blue. But oh well, we are not use to texting except for the time that we went out and yeah, on the way to the mall and home, we were texting each other. He's like a mushroom when it comes to texting.Bigla na lang susulpot.

But when it comes to chatting online, whenever we're both online, we do talk. Or, he's in invisible mode then he'll send me a private message and we'll talk. That's how it usually goes. Even though I'm online and he'll appear online in my list, I won't PM him. Haha! Let's say it's ego or I'm trying not to talk to him. But oh well, expect that in the next 5 seconds, he's gonna PM me. Oha, oha. Hahaha!

Yeah, I woke up this morning when he texted me and I replied. It's not everyday that he's texting me anyways. Hahaha! But then, after a while, he did not reply anymore.  But after an hour or so, he texted again joking me to call him if I really have so many load. Haha! We were always joking each other who's richer when it comes to load. So, I called. He was still at the jeepney and told me that he's on his way home. I said okay and hung up. Then, I just waited for him to go online because he said that he's on his way. Common sense, guys! Haha!

I was actually excited, (yes, I am, SHUT UP! ) because we weren't able to talk last night. We usually chat around 8PM and I signed off at YM around 7PM last night. It's not really possible that we would have the chance to chat. I was even making myself remember if I mentioned it to him that I am on the graveyard shift this week because he do know my schedule last week -- so like my other friends. Come on! But I confirmed it this afternoon that he didn't know that and I wasn't able to mention it to him. Poor me. If only I did, we could have talked yesterday! Oh well, that's only a day.

Back to the scene. Haha! After I ate my lunch, there is still no reply from him. Then suddenly, my phone rung, and it was him!  When I picked up the phone, my opening was, "Yes? Miss call ba ito?" Hahahaha! Yes, I am making fun of him about the load. Haha! He even replied, "Oo. Miss call `to. Ang tagal nga e." LMAO. But after a while, we hung up and just decided to talk online. I mean, duh? I'm a Sun subscriber and he's Globe -- that costs a lot! Oh, okay, not a lot but it's still inconvenient. Right?

When he got online, he was invisible and he just PMed me. I told you guys! LOL. We were chatting for a while, about 10 minutes or so, when he told me that he's going out later. So I said okay. I was in the state of "Why bother telling me?" when he told me that he's going and started counting to 0 then he'll go. Of course, it's just a joke but then, I got pissed off. I was like, "COME ON. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU HERE, THEN YOU'RE GOING. THAT'S JUST GREAT. THAT'S JUST REALLY REALLY GREAT." And yeah, we had a drama. PSH. 

Lei (10/21/2008 3:38:12 PM): :-"
Lei (10/21/2008 3:38:46 PM): akala ko aalis ka? 
guy (10/21/2008 3:38:59 PM): gusto mo na ba akong umalis?
Lei (10/21/2008 3:39:03 PM): :-"
Lei (10/21/2008 3:39:14 PM): kelangan ko ba sagutin? /:) arte mo.
guy (10/21/2008 3:39:48 PM): kasi kung gusto mo aalis ako
Lei (10/21/2008 3:39:55 PM): : :-S
Lei (10/21/2008 3:39:59 PM): di na lang ako sasagot. :D
Lei (10/21/2008 3:40:33 PM): bahala ka. kung gusto mo umalis, alis na.
guy (10/21/2008 3:40:42 PM): ??
Lei (10/21/2008 3:41:05 PM): :-|

After that, he signed out. I was totally pissed off. That was like, [sarcastic]"FCUK. THANK YOU FOR LEAVING ME HERE."[/sarcastic]

So I said, "Sabi ko nga, gusto mo umalis. geh, ingat." Then he replied! Hahaha! Lokong bata, nag-invisible lang pala. Psh. He doesn't want us to fight more that's why he pretended to signed out. Dang. It's as if we're lovers and we're having a fight! Talk about LQ! DUH! *roll eyes* After the "drama" he asked me if what time will I go online again. Oh, maybe he missed me. Right, right? Hahaha! Assuming!  So I said it'll be tomorrow `coz by 5PM, I'm gonna go and prepare for work. He told that he might go home late later that's why he's asking me. Duh, I'm not assuming! It's true! It's true! He wants to talk to me! Hahaha! (I feel like I'm crazy. ) Then he joked about something and I laughed. Hahaha! During that time I wasn't actually feeling fine because he's still going and he just extended another 20 minutes with our chat.

Lei (10/21/2008 3:49:51 PM): hahahahaha!
Lei (10/21/2008 3:49:56 PM): biglang gumanun? adeek ka talaga. 
guy (10/21/2008 3:50:06 PM): wui tumawa siya
guy (10/21/2008 3:50:13 PM): tawa nga ba talga yan??
Lei (10/21/2008 3:50:21 PM): oo. lech ka. im not feeling fine tapos gaganyan ka. bwisit. 
guy (10/21/2008 3:50:35 PM): edi i'll make you fine!
Lei (10/21/2008 3:50:43 PM): e aalis ka na e. 
Lei (10/21/2008 3:50:48 PM): wala na. di na magiging fine. lol
guy (10/21/2008 3:50:52 PM): mabilis lang ako magbihis
Lei (10/21/2008 3:51:00 PM): tapos?
guy (10/21/2008 3:52:34 PM): kausapin muna kita
guy (10/21/2008 3:52:34 PM): gusto mo magbihis ako habang kachat kita??
guy (10/21/2008 3:52:34 PM): kaya ko yun!!

Haha! He's an addict. He acts like a child that's why I never got bored talking with him. So there. He prepared himself for a "date" with his father while chatting with me. Hahaha! Sweet! LOL. Then we talked and talked until I was oh-so-fine that I am enjoying chatting with him -- the way that I use to. Hahaha!

Then, finally, I need to let go of him because they're going out and also because I need to prepare myself because I have work. At the end of our conversation, he told me that he just asked (forced? haha!) his father to go a lil bit later so that he could chat with me and make me feel fine. Oh well, he really does have that attitude. He don't want that I am feeling down or something. Thus, the "date" we had this month. LOL I really appreciate everything that he is doing or he did for me.

















Nonetheless, I am still not in love. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!