30 minutes to go...

Feb 27, '09 8:47 AM


.. and that would be 24 hours that would be equivalent to a day without him. Err. Not actually without him for if I'm not sleeping, I'm thinking about him. FCUK.

I'm so effing stupid. Why did I ever thought of teasing him of living without me? And here I am.. almost dying and grasping for breath. I can't breathe. Are you the air that I breath now? That's why I'm having a hard time pulling the hours and not contacting you? DAMN.

Emo mode. Is this your impact to me? My oh my. I'm trapped again in the game of love. FCUK. But oh yeah, good thing is we don't have this set-up because we fought. Just what Abhie said, "Mas ok un mamiss nyo naman un isa't isa." But why am I feeling this way? I feel defeated. I think and feel that I miss him more. I think he's having a good time and not effing thinking about me. I want to rant. Rant. Rant. ARGGHH.

And oh yeah, Ervin and I had a short text convo just this morning. I was asking Ervin for the story that he missed to tell me. Then he told me to ask Rai. I answered, "Di kami bati. Ikaw na lang magkwento." I was acting like a child. HAHAHA! And then Ervin won't believe me. I asked if he saw Rai awhile ago and he answered yes. Maybe he won't believe me for it doesn't show with Rai. Damn. I'm so paranoid. HAHAHA!

Yeah right, Abhie, I am weak. I was even planning of calling their house once I woke up this evening just to hear his voice and hung up the phone -- for he always answer their phone if he's there. But oh well, he was not yet in their house when I called around 8pm and I don't have the heart to hung up the phone when Ate Gelli answered it. SHIT.

And hey Lhyzie, I'll be giving you his number. Text him. I won't have second thoughts anymore. LOL. Just kidding. Let him be if he's happy. PSH.